Starting to think no one reads this and I'm just bound to be isolated and alone no matter what platform I use or who I reach out to. I feel beyond the words of ugly, unwanted, or used.... I'm ready to go anytime now.

Been a couple of weeks since I have hopped on, would like to share that everything has been going well. Wish the same for everyone else too!

Unlike the past couple of weeks today has been a good turn around for everything. Wishing the world and everyone well.

In the presence of frustration I tend to let my mind and body be filled with no other emotion than anger. My day itself began with my outside male chickens disturbing me from slumber. I had donned heavy clothing and caught two of the three into transport containers for I am taking them to another who will free range them but alas, the last one, had flown into my neighbors yard and for the past three hours I have been tormented by the cruel fates and merciless universe. To add to the waiting game, it is raining and the damned featured beast has hidden itself under a boat. Today is horribly cruel.

I am waking up to a newfound feeling. The past few days were indeed rough but it's turning around. Wishing the world well today.

Bleeeeeeeeeeeggghhhhhhhhh. I am so looking forward to being weeks away from today onto a path where I've ultimately decided to stop smoking and drinking. I am feeling a world of agitation and inconvenienced but I'm really focused on the belief that next year I'll be even more financially secure and physically healthy. It doesn't take a mathematician to know that certain daily habits can truly add up to $5,000 a year (and that's on the low side) but I desire to spend the rewards of my labor better, or on things that will hold value instead of end up in a trashcan. I truly wish strength onto everyone to find the willingness and willpower to change. Going on day 2 being free.

Another cold day working outside but I'm happy to be part of the force building the world. Hope everyone makes it through and stays well.

Day 3 of quitting alcohol and day 1 of quitting nicotine. It's not that I can't afford them but I'm tired of how out of character I get when I have a slight inconvenience concerning them. I want to be content on a new level and I don't think I can get there while being mentally bound to these substances that compel me to consume every minute of every hour every day. Unrelated, the snow was nice and the weather has warmed back up turning that day into a memory. I hope everyone finds the strength to quit a habit be it substances, or a personal battle.